The pictures...

The last post was long and I didn't want to start a whole different topic at the end, but I need to address the pictures....

I guess I should actually say the making of the pictures...

I had JP take those after a workout on Saturday, 4/9/11.  I am taking these for a reason.  They hopefully one day will be tangible proof of where my body once was.  For now, they are proof that my body is where it is.  

I had my husband take them, and as you can see, I have my head hung in shame.  I was burning with shame, and at the end, I was in tears.  It was so hard for me to stand there and have him take those pictures.  My husband! He who sees me naked when I get out of the shower, who is my partner, who I have an intensely close relationship with, who knows me better than anyone else in the world.  And I was so ashamed my eyes burned with tears.  It was an intensely vulnerable moment for me. As is this blog.

Just a reminder to anyone who struggles with body issues that it's not easy.  Shining the light on it helps me stay in the solution and keeps me focused on what is real - my health.